Baby days are coming soon.
I spend much of my day dreaming of our little one's impending arrival and hoping it will be sooner than expected.
Yet, when I think about the day he will be born I wish I could just keep him inside where he is safe, protected, and unaffected by the medical trials to come.
I want to see the whole picture, to have clear answers, to understand what our next steps will be.
Yet, I don't want the full picture and I don't want to go through the learning process necessary in discovering what our next steps will be.
I want to share our baby and our story to impact others.
Yet, I don't want to talk about it - seeking privacy instead of attention.
I want to move on with our new life.
Yet, I want things to stay the way they are.
I want to experience the shelter. I want to weather the storm.
Yet, I know that only with the peace that transcends my understanding am I ready to celebrate the first day of the rest of our lives.