A List Maker's Life: On Healing and Such: The Grayscale

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

On Healing and Such: The Grayscale

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~Gabe's body WILL be healed. We trust beyond a shadow of doubt that it IS possible.

~God will choose whether to heal him now, here on Earth, or someday in Heaven.

~Everyday we pray for physical healing soon: That Gabe will be born free of nerve damage. That his brain formation and fluid drainage will be trouble free. That he will learn to walk.

~We continue to invest time into all of the resources that are presented to us. We study what it means to be the best parents we can to a child with spina bifida. We prepare for the diagnosis we've been given.

~After most conversations I often wonder if others question my persistent prayers and hopefulness. Does it sound like my thinking is too simplistic? Do you see that I am still grieving over what could be? Do you understand that we still hurt, we still wonder, we still question, we still have big concerns? Is it evident that we refuse to let ourselves worry in spite of our circumstance?

~I think:
Worry requires our action.
Concern leads to prayer, trusting His actions.

Black & White
~There are several stories in the Bible that talk of physical healing. In every case the purpose of the physical healing is for God's glory to be evident. It is my understanding, personal footnote perhaps, that His purpose in performing miracles is to attract more attention to Him -not to us.

~In explanation of times when God chooses not to heal the Bible says, "My grace is sufficient for you, my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."

~If our baby boy is not healed here on Earth I am trusting that it is not because of our lack of faith. It is not because there were not enough people praying for him. It is not because of something we have done in the past. It is not because God thinks there is a lesson we need to learn. Yet I believe we will grow and learn despite any outcome.

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~Gabe has been created perfectly, in God's image and for His purpose.
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What are your thoughts? Really. The more I study the more I wonder. I'd love to hear your blacks, whites, and grays.


  1. My two cents:
    1. You are handling this well and I so appreciate your willingness to share this journey with your readers. I think many are blessed by following your story.
    2. Whether God heals your baby on earth or in heaven has nothing to do with the sincerity of your faith. God knows the motives of your heart. The fact is that we live in a fallen world. Bad things happen, and God allows them to happen. He allowed this into the filter of your life because He knew you would be strong enough to handle it and to use it for His glory, no matter the outcome.
    3. I do believe in physical healing and that God does choose to heal on earth. I have multiple sclerosis and lupus and spent time begging God to heal me. Over the years I have realized that I have been healed from so many strongholds and generational wounds that I never would have let Him have access to had I not been sick. I look forward to my heavenly body but no longer view my illness as a curse but rather a learning experience that has brought me closer to God on so many levels and an experience I have been able to share with others as a way to illustrate God's perfect love.

    Praying for you and your family!

  2. Praying that His will be done and that you will have peace right now mama!!!!! HUGS!

  3. "And in ALL your ways, acknowledge Him, and He will direct your paths." Prov. 3:6

    That is black and white.

    Katie and Kevin, I have said it in the past and again I say.... Your courage and faith are evident. Your transparency, your open-ness and your words are an encouragement to all!
    We can only glimpse the hurt, but we pray all the more for you guys and your family.
    Scripture is clear in so many areas and yet seem tough for us to understand in many other areas.
    This one thing I know.... He will NEVER leave us NOR forsake us! There is absolutely NOTHING we face that He has not faced and conquered. To go along with that, He guarantees us that we will NOT face anything we cannot handle.
    His Grace is sufficient. This you know.
    Thank you, guys, for your amazing testimony.
    May God receive all the praise and glory for our thoughts, words and actions!!

    Love ya!

    Rj & Arelys

  4. that is it to me: gabe is perfectly made in His image. he WILL be healed....now or later.
    all the in betweens? those gaps? praise God for His grace to fill those in! He will.

  5. I think you are so brave and such a beautiful mother. Your outlook on this entire situation gives my faith more strength daily.

    I myself have had to look at the blacks & whites with Jackson and his developmental issues.

    I have often wondered, will he ever talk?
    And then I think to myself...it doesn't really matter. I will love him regardless. :-)


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