Gavin came down at 2:00 AM and asked if he could lay next to us in bed for a few minutes before he put on his school clothes. He went on to say, “Don’t worry I already made my bed, turned off my night light, and unplugged my radio. So, my room is all ready for when I go to Kindergarten this morning.” He was so excited he couldn’t sleep. Neither could his mama.
It isn’t as much about how quickly he’s grown and how hard it is to believe the last 5 years have come and gone. It’s not difficult because we are concerned about how he will to academically and behaviorally. It’s not even because he is unprepared or unwilling to take this next step.
For me, it’s about giving up control. It’s about who and what will influence Gavin from day to day. It’s about trusting others. It’s about knowing there will be ups and downs, good days and bad days. Knowing that some kids will be friendly when he extends the invitation, and others may turn him down. It’s about celebrating the activities where he feels great success, and guiding him to solutions when he struggles.
It’s about letting go.
He is going to meet new friends. He has a fantastic teacher. He is in a great school. He is safe. He has neighbors, aunts, uncles, grandmas, and grandpas praying for him. Throughout his schooling adventures he will laugh. He will beam with pride. He will smile. He will cry. And so will I.
But today, we are looking ahead!